I Guess it Makes Me Human

Ok, so I'm a woman, and this is no surprise to any of you who know me, but being a woman comes with certain emotions and feelings. Lately, I can't explain it, but I have wanted a baby. I know it's crazy, cause Aaron and I are no where near being ready for kids. But I can't help seeing children everywhere and wanting to add one to our family. Even more strange, as it may seem to some, I am wanting to adopt children rather than have biological children. I have always wanted to adopt, but as I get older I just see us adopting. I have been praying about this a lot and it has been on my mind. I can't imagine what the future holds for us, but I pray that God has a little life in store for us to care for and love. It's hard to explain how I feel. I mean, I'm in no way opposed to having a biological child, if that is what God has intended for us, but I truly long to adopt. My heart has always wanted to have a family that is blended from different countries and cultures. The more I read and study on the subject of adoption the more my heart longs to grow our family this way. I know we have a very long road ahead and probably won't even be able to afford children for about 5 years, but I still think about it alot. I guess I'm at that age where I see babies everywhere and want one of our own. I know it's a long way off, but there's no harm in thinking about things. I know I'm thinking way in advance, but I've always been the type to have a plan of action, even if it doesn't work out. So here's to research, planning, and praying that God has a baby in store for us someday in some country waiting to be born to come home to us. God Bless :-)

*And not only this, but also we ourselves, having the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our body-Romans 8:23*

***Note: Ok, so it's a little ran together, but I had to get my thoughts out there. I've been thinking about this for so long and so many years :-)***